This was today

 Some paperwork for assessment is apparently lost. It is believed it was last in my hands, but I have no recollection of ever having had it. That does not mean I do not. It probably means the person handed it to me, I said "Thanks," and because I was busy with something else, I stuck it somewhere. I cannot find that "where" now. I spent over an hour tearing my office apart this morning (at least I managed to find a lot of paper to send to recycling). I didn't find the stuff. I do not know how bad this is. My catastrophizing mind is saying "your campus will lose accreditation and it will be ALL YOUR FAULT" but I don't think it's probably that bad. (What happens if the assessment person dies? Or their office burns down? And anyway, I'd argue making the most chronically-disorganized person in the department deal with a million small pieces of paper that are cryptically labeled at times is not a great idea)

But it went downhill from there - other stuff was needed of me, I didn't get the work I intended to do in the morning done, and because there were changes to the job-posting assessment rubric, I had to go back and reread parts of the 25 applications I read on Tuesday, plus two more that came in past the deadline. 

It was after 5 when I got home again today

I ate a nutella and almond butter sandwich for dinner. I feel guilty about it - I SHOULD have made myself eat vegetables - but I didn't get out to the grocery like I planned (I was NOT taking the half-hour or more it would take at the end of the day)

I'm not even going to say "maybe tomorrow will be better." I am meeting with some prospective students, which is good, except they have a campus tour at 2, are scheduled to meet with me at 3, and so I assume it'll actually be closer to 3:30 or 3:45 when they get over after the tour (I know how those things work). 

And the state of the world - God save us all. I just feel these days like I'm gonna be here to witness humans going extinct, and I don't like that. It feels like the mid 1980s again, a time I thought I'd put behind me. And I don't have the hazy understanding and optimism of youth to buoy me up about what the aftermath of a Big Event might be like. I dunno. I know I ruminate too much but when you're alone 90% of the time it's hard not to.