Not in a headspace to do one today
I had something weird happen that I'm going to have to mentally process (no, I am not in any danger, nothing bad happened to me, I just need some thinking space, someone revealed something to me that I'm just going to have to fit into the jigsaw puzzle that is my world and I also decided I had to call the counselor again to day and start doing appointments again to cope with (a) my feeling like I'm losing any satisfaction in my job based on how it's been changed to do COVID and (b) some anger I'm feeling at other people based on what they're doing in this and (c) the fact that I feel very isolated and basically like I'm not valued by some who probably should value me.
Also I have a lot of anxiety about starting class where things are mostly being done as pre-pandemic with no distancing in classes and no real testing being done, and a lot of the load for things like contact tracing and keeping students safe being on us. I'm just hoping beyond hope that we can stay safe, but this current "surge" has me badly spooked and no I don't really trust that I developed sufficient immunity to it.
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I feel your pain. Much of what you expressed (Feeling betrayed, unappreciated) I felt right before I retired, and that was PRE-COVID.
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