One Month On
(for a friend)
It’s been a month.
I haven’t forgotten you.
I think of you, think of “wow, I wish
I knew what he would have said about this”
I think of jokes that would have made you laugh
You once said, from the depths of pain,
“I’ll probably die soon” and I reacted
The way most mentally-robust people do,
With horror and a “no, don’t say that, I would be sad”
And you responded, “You’ll forget me soon enough.”
I told you then it wasn’t true.
And it isn’t true now.
I still feel the hole, though perhaps now
It is more like a broken window on a house
Than it is like a decompression failure on an aircraft;
I am able to feel happiness again without it
Immediately being sucked out into the void
I have not forgotten you, though
I wish you were still here, and healthy, and sound
I think of things that would have amused you
And I hope you are somewhere, and maybe able to
Catch some inkling of those amusing things
Perhaps though I am grateful
That you are beyond the pain now
And beyond the many annoyances that
Exist in our world now
But I still miss you, because your presence
Sometimes made the annoyances a bit
More tolerable, or you would say something funny
About them, and make them sting a little less.
Though I will say I have learned one thing:
Depression or “sadness” or whatever does lie;
I realize now that if something happened to me
(please God may it not)
I would leave a hole in someone else’s life,
Maybe even someone I barely knew.
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