Thursday afternoon argh.

 * So a student had his computer blink out on him last night while taking the online quiz. This is someone I trust, and also when I looked at his attempt, he had gotten the first three answered and then nothing after. I just spent a good fifteen minutes searching around in Canvas. I finally found out how to "moderate quiz" to give him another shot at it, and I hope I remember it for the future, but.....I am not dealing well with the learning curve on this, every time something goes a little wrong I have to spend time searching the "help" archives for something that matches my request.

Younger me might have felt good about beating the problem; 54-year-old me is just tired and doesn't like spending that time.

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* My final Doki Doki crate came and I must say I am very dissatisfied and am angry at Bokksu/the former Japan Crate company: it is exactly the same crate they sent out last month, the same one I in fact received TWO of last year (I remember because back then I sent the bathing suit bags for Purlewe and her wife to use)

So now I once again have two little bathing suit "wet bags" (I don't swim) and two dumb little plastic bottles too small to store anything in (I think they're for flying with shampoo, and I don't fly, and if I did? I'd just buy shampoo at my destination). And two dumb plastic hand fans. And another small Pokemon towel that's really too small to dry anything but my hands on. And a hair clip, at least this time it's a whale shark instead of a copy of the octopus of before.

And I know, I know, in the grand scheme of the terrible things happening in the world I should not feel bad, I am not really *allowed* to feel bad, but I do. I feel screwed over - if they weren't doing any new crates they should have given us the offer of a refund of the balance of our subscription (Mine was set to renew this month and I've cancelled it, so I won't receive any more of these) AND they should have been more up-front about it (and I have never received the promised "we're going to explain the changes and why" e-mail , and I doubt I will at this point).

And I AM disappointed. I mean, yeah, I guess they did start to go downhill in the pandemic - there was at least one month where my crate never came, and like I said, I got a repeat last year, and the quality of the stuff has gone down, but.....it was something I looked forward to. It was a small nice thing that I could anticipate sometime in the month (In the early days, it was like the first week of the month, gradually it shifted to the very last week).

And no, I've been looking around for possible replacement subscription boxes and found nothing to suit.

And I have this useless-to-me stuff - no one I know locally would want it, i don't think even the Goodwill would want it. But it galls me to just throw it out. So I don't know. Maybe I keep it to remind me you can't trust any company, they'll eventually all do you wrong. 

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I really need to get on to sorting litter bags but I have a headache and my allergies have been btohering me, I should probably mask up for it, I could do that (I have a mask and ear saver in my purse; I rarely wear them any more but I carry one at all times in case:

a. I wind up needing to go into a medical facility; I figure being around people who MIGHT have a chronic illness I should wear one

b. I wind up somewhere very crowded and it seems prudent to (I tend to avoid crowds like, well, the plague.)

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But yes, I am just very sad about the world and what goes on it, and increasingly feeling like "I try to be kind to other people and I try to help other people and all it gets me is more demands on my time and a world that's still spiralling down into evil, literally nothing I can do makes anything any better" and I just want to lie down and throw a giant tantrum but also that would solve absolutely nothing and I am just having a lot of Big Feelings over things and don't fully know how to deal with them. And then I get frustrated because I am fifty-freaking-four years old and I should have this figured out by now! So I don't know.

except I do know I either need to do my research or grade the exams I gave today even though I don't want to do EITHER