week of meetings

 yeah, so, I'll probably be a bit scarce. I have CWF tonight, pastor-parish committee tomorrow night, board meeting Wednesday night, somewhere in between that (maybe tomorrow afternoon) go get the next batch of samples.

I may also have had a touch of either a stomach virus or food poisoning (who knows any more, it seems like they're not even bothering with inspections any more given all the recalls you hear about) - upset stomach, pain I at first worried could be gallbladder* but has since resolved, loss of appetite, a little indigestion. It's gotten better so I'm trying not to worry about it (Also stress makes stomach issues worse in me, and it's been a stressful bit)

I did turn the heel and start the instep of the Dragon's Breath socks so I guess I will finish those. 

(*I always worry it's gallbladder; one of my uncles had to have his out. Then again, he was a vegetarian who subbed LOTS of cheese for meat and I try to moderate my diet more)

I am also dealing with some difficult and demanding people and it just makes it hard. I'm in one of my periodic holes of feeling like everyone expected everything from me right now and it's never good enough, but if I needed genuine help it might be hard to find.

And admit a little frustration at some first-year students, or maybe their parents, I don't know. Some of them may be playing up the helplessness so they don't have to do stuff but some may genuinely have been sent out unready into the world. I'm trying to strike a balance between being the "kind" we are asked to be these days (I remember when I was a student, if I asked a prof for some of these things I'd have gotten a cold stare and maybe a 'what are you, stupid?) and continuing to be the mama bird vomiting worms into the baby birds' mouths so that they never learn to feed themselves. 

I mean, yes, I don't really know what people have going on, and yes, "they had it hard during the pandemic" and yet, I did too? With very little help or support? And I am still here and still managing if somewhat damaged....