Finished the socks

 I finished the Vintage Christmas (yarn colorway) socks tonight:

They don't match *perfectly* but I don't care; it was a long repeat and I was afraid of running short. This yarn was bought from a hand-dyer on Etsy.

In other news, I'm trying and mostly failing not to worry about the orthopedist appointment tomorrow. Oh, I'm definitely a lot better than when I did the injury, and better than I was even last week. But I still have pain at times - it was bad this afternoon when I got home, but again - I had to carry boxes of herbarium specimens around and do the whole "load up the car, drive to one door, take the stuff out, put the new stuff in, drive to the other door" dance, and I was on my feet a lot. 

I feel better this evening now after icing it, and taking Tylenol, and sitting some. I probably am trying to do too much but I really don't know how I could do LESS than I do. 

I'm just hoping the doctor will tell me to give it more time, or that I need some PT (And NOT surgery). It's frustrating; I felt so much better this weekend when I was walking less, but after today back on those hard floors I worry again that I've blown a ligament that will have to be surgically repaired. 

I really do think I need to give it a couple more weeks before I fully decide; it's been a month but a lot of places I've read that even a mild sprain can take a minimum of six weeks to resolve. Also I CAN'T go in for surgery now; there is literally no one to cover my classes and I DO NOT WANT to have to teach over Zoom from a hospital bed, that feels too dystopian. 

And I can't bear the thought of going back to a level of pain like I had when I first did the injury for a month and a half or two months after surgery. I just can't. I'm worn out from pain and it's starting to get better and I don't want to go backwards. 

I dunno. I hope I don't think about it too much tonight and actually sleep.