Okay, okay, okay

People do push me to write a gratitude list, my life isn't SO terrible:

- I own my house, so as long as I can scrape together the cost of the property tax, I won't lose my home

- I am still employed (currently)

- I am not sick, nor has anyone particularly close to me gotten sick

- I have enough food

- Right now the caseload in my county is low enough it's probably still safe to grocery shop in person

- My air conditioning is working

- My plumbing is working

- I have electricity and internet

- I've got exercise equipment at home and I work out here so if the gyms close down I am okay as far as that is concerned

- I'm fundamentally safe. I may be lonesome but at least I'm not living with an abusive person

- I have enough books and yarn and other stuff to keep me

- I was able to fairly easily replace the dvd player; most of the annoying small problems in my life can be solved by throwing a little money at them

- I still have about six month's living expenses (maybe more if I dropped cable and the landline phone and cut out a few other things) in my savings account

- Right now I don't have to go out into the world unless I want to

But it's still hard. I tend to be an idealist and I do see how things could be better. (I confess; one of the things I do to occupy my mind, like when I'm working out, is imagine how differently I'd have managed things if it were up to me - earlier, faster response, more listening to actual epidemiologists, not do the "noble lie" about "masks don't work" early on)

But we got what we got and maybe even earlier interventions wouldn't have helped, who knows.

it's just all extremely tiresome and the little things (like the non-delivery) on top of all the big things are just that much harder to take.

At least Quixotic Fibers is still in business - got an e-mail from them today. And while I shouldn't be buying more yarn....well, maybe I see if they have a pattern book I want, throw a little money their way and also have some "nice mail" to look forward to