And it's Friday

Ice Cream Machine mostly broken today, sorry.

I got up early enough and started on the biostats stuff. It's not DONE, but it's done for now. And then the second half of the day I recorded the last chapter's lecture for the intro bio class (split into three parts) and the disease ecology stuff for ecology (split into 4 parts).

It was after 6 pm when I finished. And also, I was just kind of gutted. For one thing: the disease ecology stuff, with its talk of R0 and the s-shaped curves for infections/deaths, are just....well, it's a little too much on the nose, a little too much "ripped from the headlines." I mean, I guess it's good the students learn this and see the importance of it, but it's just hard to contemplate right now.

And also...well, this was just a good class, and it makes me sad that we had to stop halfway through the semester and go over to a method that's considerably less than second-best.

I mean, I'm OK - this isn't a bad night like Tuesday night was, which pushed me to seek out the counselor again - but I am still sad. And I think I am allowed to be sad in this. I think we all are. For big things AND for little things.

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In a bit I am going to get up and put away the clean laundry, which is one other thing I got done today (at least I can run laundry while I work on biostats stuff) and change the sheets on my bed, and maybe take a warm bath and go to bed a little early.

Plans for tomorrow are to finish the biostats stuff and maybe attend to the editing and also prep and cook a pot of beans (I might just do half of the pound bag, so I don't have a beanstravaganza I have to eat up). That will be a good change of food.

And, if I feel really energetic tomorrow afternoon, I'm considering doing a batch of bread dough and maybe making a small loaf and a pan of cinnamon rolls. I have yeast and plenty of flour and enough sugar and eggs and butter and I don't even know what else I'd need for bread than that. (And I have cinnamon. And raisins, if I decide I want them in the rolls - sometimes my mother would plump up raisins in boiling water and roll them up in cinnamon rolls)

I'm going to TRY to get my work done in the morning so if the weather's good I can go out to my backyard for a bit, or, failing that, do some sewing in my sewing room.

I need to finish a few projects but I found my Elisabeth Doherty book and SOMEDAY during this time I'm going to crochet up Ranibow Sprimkle because I have all the bits I need to make her now. And I....I don't know, but I kind of feel like I need a silly goofy thing like that.