We're supposed to get ice tomorrow so they pre-emptively cancelled classes tomorrow. And asked us NOT to do virtual teaching, I guess they were afraid people would not have power? I don't know.
I had to move my Friday exam (presuming FRIDAY classes are not cancelled) because I hadn't completed all the material, I planned to do that tomorrow. And the lab scheduled for tomorrow will be next week, I guess.
This also means if it's good enough for campus to be open Thursday, the intro lab I teach won't meet - because the other section of it meets on Wednesday and we have to keep them on the same schedule. I have an exam scheduled that day, too, and I'll give it IF campus is open - I finished the material and even did a review session today.
But I suspect it's going to be worse Thursday.
The other disappointing thing is that Saturday again looks like it will be bad weather and probably unsafe to drive, and so I guess that means I "float" my doing-something-for-my-birthday to some undetermined date in the future. And I admit I hate that. I want to do it as close to the day as I can but....whatever. Or maybe I just DON'T this year, since it's already been a couple years of "we can't have nice things" (And given geopolitical issues, well, we might get even worse "can't have nice things" in the coming months).
As a sentence I regularly used to get in Duolingo (I guess I've progressed to harder ones) is "Spaß kommt zulezt" meaning "fun comes last," which really is no way to live but sometimes you have to
I will admit if I'd known in more advance about this I've made some better arrangements, maybe even searched around to see if anywhere offered "birthday party in a box" that a person could order and have delivered with....well, I don't know, a cake mix, I guess, and maybe a balloon? Or something. As it is, I may be eating cold food because the power may be out. (I may wind up NOT filling the pulpit Sunday if things are bad, though I do have the sermon done).
I think part of my frustration with this is just generalized worry - about the power maybe going off, about getting way behind in class. But part of it is also a bit of bitterness at having given up fun things for the past 2 years or so and yet again I'm going to have to. (And of course: who knows when the next bad variant with immune escape hits? I figure now it's just going to be endless deciding "okay I stay home for a month and a half" interspersed with "yay I maybe have three weeks to go do stuff")
The other thing is, yeah, I'm lonesome. Being able to be out in class helps fight that, staring at the walls in my house and only interacting online, or worse, on the phone, makes it worse. I suppose the best case scenario is that we don't get much ice tomorrow, they reopen campus, and conditions improve.
I'm nervous though that it will be bad for a while - I ran to Pruett's on the way home and while I have enough milk and some more sour cream, I didn't buy any meat (I have leftovers for another couple days, I guess) and I won't have anything "special" for my birthday. (The past few years I've gotten carry out from the good local barbecue place but if the weather's bad I can't do that). I guess I have the makings for some kind of cake (I know I have what's needed for "wacky cake" - an eggless, milkless, butterless cake that I got turned on to after someone who was vegan praised it - it's got no animal products but it is good).
I really think part of it is giving up on "celebrations," or at least celebrations the way I might want them for almost two years (I REMEMBER Thanksgiving 2020 and Christmas 2020) and it's frustrating to have that yet again. I'm not good at figuring stuff out by myself and at home....
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