an ethical dilemma

 Campus is closed here (until 5 pm, which tells me some Big Sports Thing is supposed to happen tonight and that's why they're reopening). The roads seem clear and the weather is good today.

It is not going to be good anywhere south of the Red River - the only places I might want to go - tomorrow. Freezing rain/cold rain whereas today is sunny.

I don't even know. I COULD go today and work tomorrow instead. But I feel guilty: today was supposed to be a workday! I can't go do fun on a workday! That's like playing hooky! But I probably could not tomorrow....because of the weather.

I hate this. I wish I had someone here telling me "go, go have fun, you've waited long enough to do things, you've given up enough. All you'd do today anyway was research reading; you can do that tomorrow just as well, and you're going to be here over spring break, you can work then and you probably CAN'T go then because you committed to doing Meals on Wheels, and that takes up an hour in the middle of the day"

Wish I knew what the bridge over the river looked like. If it was still icy I'd not go, but if it's clear? The roads are probably safe.

maybe I wait an hour and go? That would be like when I walked out of class. Or maybe I call the knit shop and ask what the roads are like down there

But I hate this. I hate how I have spent the past 2 years balancing "safety" and "pleasure" and "safety" always winning, and now instead of "you might get infected" it's "the roads might not be safe"

Suppose I could drive in to campus and do a couple things, see how the local roads are....

Edited to add: still some icy patches on roads, and the parking lot was icy (I took my blackthorn walking stick but the place where I parked was ice free up to the building). Also the LOCAL weather (as opposed to the NWS) is showing much, much lower chances of precipitation in the area tomorrow so I think I am going to go back home and work at home this afternoon, and then try going tomorrow. I don't like gambling and one thing the horrific "marshmallow test" of the past couple years has taught me is to grab at something that seems like happiness when I can, but in this case - well, living to see another birthday seems preferable and I"m worried about the condition of the big bridge over the river if there are still icy patches in town - it should warm up a lot over the course of the afternoon and while late-afternoon would be too late to go (the shop closes at 3), that means maybe tomorrow around 9 or 10 it would be safe to drive. And if I get out on the interstate and it doesn't seem safe I can always nope out at an exit before the bridge and just go back home.