This is one of those demanding weeks: Monday, in addition to piano, I had CWF meeting in the evening. (This year, though, the president is a working mom and a high-efficiency person, so, thank goodness, our meetings wrap up before 9 pm).
Yesterday I had my night class. And I also lost a sizable chunk of the afternoon to a migraine: I had been suffering from a low-grade headache for three days, kind of kept it at bay with ibuprofen, but then after I got out of the exam I gave, and then ran to the post office (had to mail the AAUW yearbooks to those who missed the first meeting...) and then when I got home, I realized I felt REALLY awful. I was perspiring heavily even though it wasn't hot and light bothered me. I made some tea and toast (thinking maybe getting some food down would help) but wound up having to go to bed for 45 minutes. (And even with that, I got the exams all graded. I was doing my piano practice at 8:30 that night after my evening class, but I GOT THE DARN EXAMS GRADED).
Tonight is Board Meeting (I am not looking forward to it, I think there will be the usual handwringing about how we're too small and we don't have enough money and HOW WILL WE EVER ATTRACT A NEW PASTOR. And I admit I have those worries myself and I don't like seeing people I think of as more "rational" than myself expressing them, it's like it makes them more real. (For similar reasons, I get really upset and really uncomfortable if I see a man that I think of as a "strong" man crying. It sets off all kinds of alarm bells. The only times I remember my dad really crying were at bereavements and once or twice at really serious and solemn occasions.)
I've had little time to knit, or really do anything much "for myself" (other than, I suppose, the piano practice. But even that feels like work, some days).
I have to keep telling myself that the three rows I knit on Basketweave last night before bed ARE progress; that if I keep knitting a few rows every day eventually I'll have a finished sweater. But it's hard to keep thinking that and keep believing that when the daily progress is so minimal. ("How you do anything is how you do everything....")