What I could use right now:
A guarantee that my faculty meeting will let out in time for me to run my errands.
The chance to just do a bunch of shopping and not think about the cost. Yarn shopping. Or book shopping. No, that won't happen, I've spent too much recently as it is.
Something hot and savory for lunch, instead of the yogurt and grapes and little tub of applesauce I have in my lunch kit.
Another hour or two of sleep.
To figure out a more ergonomic way to work at my desk. My neck and shoulders are suffering.
A phone call from my mom or dad, to tell me his second test results are back and everything's normal.
For my right turbinate sinus to stop throbbing.
A good hard frost to kill all the ragweed and everything else that's spewing pollen right now.
To get my Biostats prep for tomorrow done before my faculty meeting.
For it to rain, everything it way too dry.
A hug. (And I don't say that lightly; I'm normally a very touch-averse person, but I get times when I'd just love the chance to be enfolded in someone's arms and supported by their strength for a minute or two).
This is how I am today: one of my colleagues came to my door (we're working together on something and it's been kind of a headache for both of us). He was telling me one minor problem had been resolved. He referred to me as "kiddo" when he greeted me. Normally, I would laugh and remind him that I am a year older than he. This time, I didn't even try to make the joke - I just took it for what it was, a little, perhaps vaguely-affectionate comment about my perceived youth. (Which seems to be fleeting every day; I'm having those thoughts again about "Do I really want to be doing this when I'm 60? Do I want to get up at five every morning to exercise and then pack my sorry little lunch and drive in alone to the department, and be the person who has to unlock all the doors, and then go through another day's teaching? Is this really my destiny?"). I don't know. I do know I'm in kind of a vulnerable place at this point, and I'm going to have to be careful not to start crying at setbacks (or at perceived moments of affection for me). And I'm going to have to be careful not to read more into people's comments than is there.
1 comment:
I hope that as many of these things as possible come true.
Here's my feeble attempt to help with some of these for a blogger I really admire:
It sounds as if the lunch you've packed would keep-- why not go and get something hot and savory?
As for ergonomic, what kind of desk chair do you have? My father used to have one that was a seat with no back and kneeling pads, and it was supposed to help his back. I've also heard of people sitting on those large exercise balls; supposedly they help your back and shoulders stay in better alignment.
Also, have you run across the 'Extreme Hedonism' neck wrap? It's a tube knit in some luxury yarn and then filled with a stocking full of flax seed or rice, possibly mixed with herbal tea or the like. You then microwave it and use it as a heatpack on your neck. There used to be a pattern for it, but the blogger who came up with it has retired. Anyone, though, who can do something as cool as the 'Song of Hiawatha' would be able to figure out a tube with fastenings at each end.
Please read into this comment as much affection, respect, support, and admiration as you can.
(My knitting blog: http://homepage.mac.com/nikandre/iblog/index.html )
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