Well, I can tell I'm stressed.

Part of it is a combo platter of hormones, asthma, and allergies. I feel like there's a butterfly in my chest trying to beat its way out. I feel like I'm about to crawl out of my skin. Normally, I get a bit of an energy burst at this time, but not like this. Normally, I'm calm enough to be able to channel the energy.

Not this time. If this is even one-tenth of what being on crank is like, I have to say I have no concept of why anyone would desire to use it.

Part of it is that the end of the semester is coming up, and this is when I always go into White Rabbit (as in Wonderland, not as in Jefferson Airplane) mode, where I run around thinking "ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh, Ihavesomuchtodobetweennowandnextweek ohmygosh, ohmygosh,ohmygosh, ohmygosh,ohmygosh, ohmygosh, Iwon'tbeabletosleepatalluntilthisisalldone ohmygosh, ohmygosh."

Which isn't good for me, and which really isn't true. I revised the soils final while giving an exam today, so that's done. And I have my other two finals almost revised. I'm grading the exam I gave today (a class of 5 and only 4 opted to take the test...I offer to drop the lowest exam and dude-with-an-A took the choice).

But, the real reason I know I'm stressed is my recent ordering - I just sent off an order for the second Big Box of Books from Powell's in the past month, and I've got two outstanding orders from KnitPicks (one for sock yarn, a second with a couple of skeins of Cherry Tree Hill "superglitz" in "Old Rose" which is going to become a shawl for me. But it's in two orders because, you see, I didn't know the Superglitz was on sale until yesterday.).

I also recently ordered some of that rainbowy yarn from Elann. I thought it would make a nice Sitcom Chic, but I may have to rethink that, because it's a finer weight than I expected. Ah well.

What I need to do is this: finish grading the exams. Go home, and do the exercise I wasn't disciplined enough to do this morning (that will also help reduce the butterfly-chest feeling; something to do with working off extra energy). Eat a good dinner, and then take a bath with lavender bath salts. And try not to think of the 20 ecology research papers that will land on my desk tomorrow at 11 am.