Wednesday evening things

 * I had to go out and buy some salad greens for dinner; I could not face the idea of eating another serving of that pasta/cheese sauce/ground beef/garlic thing. I SUPPOSE I should freeze it but it really does not appeal to eat more. It made way too much (four servings my foot; more like eight) and it really was too garlicky for me (sometime things that are very garlicky don't agree with me)

* Even though I SHOULD be limiting trips because of gas costs, I need to get out of town this weekend. I drove around town a bit today and saw the fifteen or so vape/dispensaries here (including one that replaced a longtime small caterer/lunch restaurant and I admit seeing all the weed and vape shops weirdly makes me feel unwelcome here. There are SO MANY of them - several in some blocks - and it's not something I use or would choose to use, and there's almost nothing here that feels like it's "for me." So once in a while I have to get to Denison where there's the yarn shop and a used-book store (actually, two, now) and the Albertson's and a nice place that sells candles and fancy soaps. I don't know. I wonder what I'll do after retirement. Will I stay here, seeing that I own a house and moving is a giant pain? Will going places for stuff be less difficult when I don't have a class-officehours-research work schedule to keep to? Or will inflation and global instability make it too expensive to go out of town for things, and ultimately I do decide to move? (which would be expensive, and I'd also have to jettison so much stuff)

But honestly, a lot of my life has been feeling "unwelcome" or like no one cares about my interests, this is not new, but it does seem to rankle more now.

* I did pull out another stalled project

 I'm still not sure I love them, the colors feel kind of meh to me. I might feel differently when they're done. Not sure what I'd do with them if I decide not to keep them, though.