I'm back in my office. I think they're probably serving the lunch now. I wound up bailing on serving after learning that they were all delayed at the cemetery, and that they probably wouldn't be back before 1:30.
So I went home, at lunch, finished my day's piano practice, and now I'm back here to start prepping the definition slides/diagrams for cell metabolism.
I feel guilty about bailing, but I'm just to the point of being wiped out...I've been pushing myself like crazy this week, the heat makes every day feel like it's a month long, my tolerance is low...and when the lady in charge came up to me and said, "you cooked and helped set up. We have enough people to serve" I remembered something the minister's wife once said in a cwf meeting: that when airplanes have an emergency severe enough to make the oxygen masks drop down, you have to put your own mask on first, before you help your child or elderly parent or the person next to you who can't manage theirs - that if you're gasping for air, you won't be much of a help to anyone.
So, my minimal goal now this afternoon is to finish the next two chapters. And then I'll take the other classes' stuff home and work on it tomorrow. And if I can get home by 4 or 4:30, I will force myself to do the hour of exercise I couldn't this morning.
(I wonder now if I could be starting to develop some kind of low-level thing, like a cold...I don't feel "right" and often that's a warning.)
2 comments:
I feel the same: that I need to retract, retire and regroup.
Only now I realized how challenging and tiring this week was, and I feel squeezed. Today was the worst, one of those days nothing works and nothing comes out right, and all the missteps, mistakes and misunderstandings are so stupid and easily avoidable - but some other day.
Don't feel guilty! As the woman told you, you had cooked and set up for the lunch. It's not like you were avoiding doing ANY work.
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