Thursday, July 17, 2008

Thanks guys. I will probably be OK - I mean, this isn't exactly something unexpected seeing as the cat is 19, and it's something I've been keeping in the back of my head for a while. (I am sure it will be harder for me when I go up there for a visit if she's gone, or if she's still there but really doing poorly).

I just wish my stupid brain processed things differently because I dreamed about it twice...two different scenarios...last night. (That's how it always is with me. When my grandmother died, I dreamed for weeks about losing other family members). I'd kind of like sleeping to be an escape, you know?

Though I do feel some better this morning; maybe the dreams (and the subsequent waking up and lying in bed crying for 15-30 minutes) actually did do something with the processing of it.

But, onward. I collect research papers today which must be graded. And this weekend is the big final push to spiff up the prairie conference paper. Which actually is a good thing - being busy keeps my mind from hanging out in sad places as much.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Busy is good. And it would be nice if sleep were an escape during stressful times, but I've never found that to be true. I'll be thinking of you.

-- Grace in MA

Anonymous said...

I find soothing music is a good escape.

Went through this last year when my in-laws' oldest dog became too ill to last. It's tough.