I'm having a hard time this morning.
Yesterday was an exhausting day, and at the very end of it, I was asked to provide documentation - before Thursday morning - of something I don't have time to document (I teach pretty much all day long today, and I have Youth Group).
I don't get what it is with people thinking a 24 hour turnaround time is enough on things.
If I don't provide the documentation, something minorly bad will happen to me. But you know? Although I kind of do care, I also kind of don't. I lack the emotional reserves to deal with this right now.
All of the stupid petty little infighting that seems to happen everywhere - in politics, on message-boards, between individuals in person, at the grocery store - is majorly getting me down right now.
Seriously. If I had enough money to live on, I'd definitely consider becoming a hermit starting now.
But I don't, so I have to go out among people and just deal. (And no - professors don't get to take "mental health days." I only cancel class if I'm actually-factually sick: either throwing up, so migraine-y that I know I'd not make sense, or with a high enough fever that I fear I'd pass out in front of the class. I can't justify cancelling class just because I'm "close to losing my s***")
I wanted to finish the first Snicket sock last night - and I'm close - but as I was working on the toe decreases, even though it was only 8:15, I just suddenly got so TIRED that I had to go to bed. And that kind of worries me, too - I don't seem to have a lot of stamina right now; I feel like I need more sleep than normal. And I ache. I hope I'm not developing fibromyalgia (I have a friend who has it); I can't deal with having less energy than I have now.
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I hope you are not getting sick. I have a hard time in the winter staying up late. And when I am stressed, my body just wants to sleep. I hope you feel better soon.
There are so many bugs around this time of year (our family tends to catch things late winter/early spring...unscientific thought here, but I believe our immune systems are running low right about now after working hard all winter). I think you have to listen to your body and if extra sleep is what you need, you should sleep. You might be fighting something so do whatever it takes to stay healthy. Then you can cope better with whatever life throws you.
-- Grace in MA
Ugh. I hope things get better.
Is there any way the documentation people can be asked to wait?
I'll be thinking about you.
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