Thursday, July 13, 2006

And, you know, it does strike me as very self-centered and self-absorbed to be worrying about my "check engine light" when everything seems to be blowing up in the Larger World and I'm spooked enough by the news to wonder if maybe the end of the world is nigh, and my considerations about 'what new car to buy' will be meaningless in 6 or 8 months if we're all vaporized, but...

it's the same old thing. Instead of discussing the purpose of life or the nature of God, people are more prone to talk about "when my feet hurt" or those kinds of things.

I never know how to balance. Part of my brain is screaming at me to 'shut up, there are people dying in Lebanon' and the other part is going "buuuuuut my caaaaaar miiiiiggghhht noooooot beee woooooorking riiiiiiiight!"

I don't know if it's self-absorption or a defense mechanism: worrying about little things keeps me from fretting about the big things - the things over which I ultimately have no control.

1 comment:

dragon knitter said...

that's the key. you can't do anything about lebanon. you can do something about eggbert (or whatever you want to call it by now, lol). you have to take care of yourself first and foremost. i'm learning that one the hard way with sean.

if you can't take care of yourself, how will you take care of anyone else (even if it's just knitting socks for dulaan).

and remember, wool socks are warm no matter what.